"Relax, because nothing is under control". has been my lesson lately. I've learnt that relax, because anything, really anything, can happen! It's better try to live with no expectations and without too rigid plans:) My plan was to stay in India for a couple of months longer, but as I randomly got an interesting job offer in Finland, I booked a flight to Helsinki. I found it sad to say goodbye to my teacher and the yoga family, but felt also excited about the new phase of life ahead. At the airport however I found out I couldn't board on the flight. I had overstayed beyond my visa in India!
As a Finnish passport holder I am entitled to a six months tourist visa in India. For my previous trips to India I have applied for the visa from Finland, but this time I applied from Spain. Spanish passport holders apparently only get three months, but it did not even cross my mind they would only grant three months to my Finnish passport (their mistake). I was just blindly looking at the expiry date, which is April 9th -totally ignoring the tiny print stating: "each stay not to exceed 90 days"...

So from Mangalore airport, where I was about to board on my intended flight (which would have taken me to Helsinki on time to start at the new job...) began an epic, if not even kafkaesque adventure... Super kind and generous, totally random Indian people trying to help me, police officer shouting at me for 'violating the visa', 8-hour bus ride from Mangalore to Bangalore, applying for the 'exit permit' from the Indian immigration authorities (spending a day at the immigration office), booking and catching a new flight and finally arriving to Finland, catching a cab from the airport directly to the new work place 1, 5 days late!

Fortunately the people at the new job were very sweet and understanding. 
This crazy adventure taught me so much! I was humbled to the core by random and not so random people's help and support. I'm sooooo inspired now to try to do my best being generous and helping others whatever way I can. I don't wanna become too cynical and lose my hope in humanity, in fellow human beings. And: generosity is beautiful and makes anyone look good:) 

I am in front of something new again. New job, new challenges... I am still "arriving" to Finland, getting settled and used to everything here. It's a huge change to mind, body and soul so I wanna take it one breath at a time, slowly adjusting to my new life here. Big thanks to you lovely readers! It's been a pleasure sharing this journey with you! Love and shanti forever!
I have a feeling that a new trip is already getting ready to call my name so maybe I get back here soon again:)


"Be responsible towards your self. Instead of blaming others try to see what role you have in the situation. With compassion.
Compassion is the doorway to work with your self, a doorway for transformation."
This is what my teacher said during a yoga philosophy class. I think compassion is a beautiful word, but it's not always an easy one to put into practice.

Compassion towards oneself or one's self as they put it in yoga philosophy... A big lesson maybe for many of us...
The most fascinating thing in yoga for me is that you're working on a very demanding physical practice (at least in ashtanga yoga:) just to get deep into your mind; behavior; self.

"One of the reasons why we crave love, and seek it so desperately, is that love is the only cure for loneliness, and shame, and sorrow. But some feelings sink so deep into the heart that only loneliness can help you find them again. Some truths about yourself are so painful that only shame can help you live with them. And some things are just so sad that only your soul can do the crying for you."
-Gregory David Roberts: Shantaram

Maybe it's the love we need to find within ourselves to reach for the compassion too. Once we learn to love ourselves and be compassionate towards ourselves, we'll truly be able to love others too and be compassionate towards them.